August 31st, 2003

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Really Need Emotional Rescue

I've been crying for an hour now. I need to get new friends. My folks woke me up to reality, and it's scary. Or maybe I'm making too much of a big deal about life in general. I'm glad I got the current friends that I have, but I need more friends that actually live in my area... I dunno. My mind's too screwed up to set things straight for myself. Or maybe I'm just too worried about Unipeg, Spider Lily & her sister right now that's getting me emotionally messed up. Lesson learning: take care of yourself first before you try to take care of someone else.
  • Current Music
    none
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Catching Up On Yesterday/Today

I guess I'm okay today.. I'm on a difficult path, but I'll get thru it somehow. I'm out of tears right now though, but it's okay.

Besides the emotional crap from last night, I walked around in Mill Valley, ran into my step-mom, and ran into a few people and went to Sycamore Park for a while yesterday afternoon. Time was getting late, and i waited for the usual bus to come for over an hour, which never came. As I had caught a ride with a friend nearby, my bus had came by a few minutes later. Oh well. Skipping last night's drama.

Today, there's a music festival thing going on at COM from noon till 5pm. Maybe I'll meet some decent musicians that i could jam with & record music with. Hopefully this will cheer me up a bit.
  • Current Music
    Bob Marley stuff in the background
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Single Again; New Music Stuff

Unfortunately, I'm just not ready to be in any relationship with anyone right now. I need time to breathe, to get back onto my own path. But it never ever means that I want to lose friends or hurt them, but I wish some people could understand how I truly feel about life, friends, etc. Unipeg does, hopefully. I'm sure a few of my friends do too, but I also got another problem to deal with, and I just need to take a few steps back mentally and see what's going on, maybe figure out the big picture that I'm missing. Or maybe I'm overanalyzing things and don't realize it.

On a totally different topic of things, I just got myself in a band with two pretty cool guys my age. I just met them at the Music Festival at COM, and we jammed on our guitars for hours. All we need to do is find a decent drummer who's into Punk Rock & Modern Rock stuff. Then we're set. So I guess I'm on a new, unfamiliar path that's gonna take a while to adjust to. But it'll be fun.
  • Current Music
    my folks babbling loudly in the background