i want to give up school, work, and everything and get away. Get closer to Ray and have things be okay. I still have no hope for a good future right now, and I'm being forced to apply at Whole Foods Floral, and I'd rather just go under unemployment for a while, and get work in August. But I'm just that plan will never happen.
I appologize for this entry being so sappy and horrible, but i'm even more trapped in this house than I was before, and I have no way out at the moment. I'm not even sure if I can leave Saturday night to see Only On Tuesdays in Petaluma. Maybe I need some serious help. I dunno, I think I'm going insane.