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Taking a Big Step

Today was a good, successful day for me. I got the big assignments done and working on little assignments. But I want to take this time to tell you what just happened to me tonight.

Tonight I had decided to return my mom's call, since she left me a voicemail a few days ago and wondering how I'm doing. She also told me in her voicemail that her second cat that used to be my brother's, is injured really bad. She later said to me as we were talking tonight that the cat's face was beat up and scary. He can't take in any foods because his teeth are all messed up now, and he can only take in liquids and barely swallow them. So my mom has to feed him and take care of him like a baby, because the vets are really inconsiderate and rude about doing anything for any animals. So she left crying and upset.

After that, my mom brought up a question, which later led to something deeper in the conversation. She asked is i had a b/f and if I was interested in any really cute guys in my school. I told her that i wasn't and that I want my freedom to be independent. She at first misunderstood what I said, and she thought I meant that I don't want a b/f for years and years. But I told her in terms of months and we both had a good laugh about it.

Here's when I take a big step to ask my mom something that I've never in my life talked to her about. Towards the end of our conversation, I asked her if she supports gay/bi/lesbian people, and she told me she definitely does support it all the way, and she also thinks gay marriages should be legalized all over the world. I agree with her. Wouldn't you agree too? We told each other that we have gay friends that we know, etc. Then she asked me if I was gay or bisexual. I said, "Yeah I'm bisexual." Her response is, "There's nothing wrong with being bisexual, and if that's the way you feel, that's completely fine. I will still always love you no matter what, and you being bisexual doesn't make me love you less. But you're still young and even if you were in love with one girl it doesn't really mean that your bi. So give it some time, honey."

I was happy, surprised, stunned, and tearful at the same time. I'm also extremely relieved to finally come out to my mom, because I was scared to find out her reaction and I thought it was gonna be much worse. Now I have nothing to hide and we both feel so much closer to each other. I also told her when I sorta discovered it and why i waited so long to tell her. She understood completely. we're both glad that we discussed this, because for a long time I was thinking that she might be against it and unaccepting of the whole thing.

I don't know what else to say but to thank my mom for supporting me in everything I do, and I love her very much and miss her lots. This will also be something in my heart that I'll always remember, and it means so much to me, it's almost indescribable.
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